Really what I really want
is to just stop thinking about you.

and really what I really need
is to not feel the sound of your voice
right up against me

to not feel the way that
you displace the air

to not see your face
like a ghost in my mind

please don't you really think.
that you could do that for me.

I have been trying very hard
to inhale deeply and breath a sigh

I have been trying very hard
to let go of this pain
that only makes me want to die.

you are so sweet
you always have a tender word
but its only i'm sorry
I know you know how that feels.

Where i am these days
it really seems so absurd
this not having you now
it just doesn't seem real.

I keep trying
to believe in another kiss
and I keep on trying
but so far it isn't sincere

and i really need
to be brave about this
but all I can do
is to give in to fear.

all I really really want
is to just sit here
with my head down in my hands
feeling so damn down.